Monthly Archives: December 2016

The Comeback

2016 has been quite the year!

After a few years of rebounding, both mentally and physically, I was ready to start the year by getting back to racing again.  I had spend 2015 working out for fun and ended that year by ramping up my running. For the first time in a long time, I was feeling good.  I was ready to focus on shedding the weight I had gained and getting back on a training schedule.

Then, only one week into the new year, I was in a major car accident. It really brought me down.  I was injured pretty badly and could not work out at all.  In a matter of weeks, I put on even more weight and started to fall back into a depression.  It would have been really easy to spiral out of control, but luckily I had a great PT, a runner herself, and she really helped me positively recover.  It was a very slow recovery, but by May, I was back in the gym and by June I was running again.  It was a very tough and very frustrating couple of weeks.  I wanted to stop multiple times.  I hated starting over.  I was finding it hard to self-motivate and keep my head up.

Then, I had an idea. I reminded myself daily what it felt like when I was first starting- when it felt impossible the first time.  I reminded myself how great it felt each time I reached a new goal; what it felt like the first time I ran a whole mile…and then a 5k..and then 10 miles, a half-marathon and gasp! a FULL-marathon!  It all started somewhere.  I hadn’t been so determined in years! I went back to my roots and started thinking about how it was when I very first started running.  I went back and ready my first blog, and the answers were all right there.  Join a club, write up a training schedule and sign up for a race!

Just like when I joined Teach Triumph way back in 2008 looking for triathlon support, I joined a local running club to keep myself motivated and accountable.  I began running with this group each week.  I wrote up a schedule and started training for an October 10 miler.  I ran, and finished that race. I followed it up with a 10k run a few weeks later.  Both of my races were far slower than I am used to, but it wasn’t about that for me.  It was about so much more.  Mostly proving to myself that I could still do this, and that I was on my way back!

It was not the comeback I had once planned, but it was a comeback!

I am looking forward to what 2017 brings.  Happy New Year, indeed!

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A Lot Can Happen In Two Years…

At least a few times a week, I think to myself, “I wish I was still blogging.”  Today, almost 2.5 years after my last post, I decided to try again.

I think the hardest part about starting over, is defining myself as a blogger.  Prior to this experiment, which only lasted a few months, I had a blog for 5 years.  I kept up with that blog despite working full time and being in school full time.  That blog was (and still is) a picture of who I was at the time.  It was easy to keep up with because it came so naturally.  I was essentially keeping a record of my life over those years.  Every now and then, I would write a serious post, but for the most part my subjects were always running, triathlon and life in general.  Then came a few major life changes and I was burnt out.  My life was changing and I no longer felt the blog reflected where I was going with running and triathlon.  So, I stopped blogging completely.  After a short break, I started this one…but it never really took off for me.  I wanted it to be a place where I could talk about my favorite things- books, food, running…etc.  I also wanted it to be a place where I could lay down the thoughts I intentionally shorten for, or entirely keep off of, Facebook.  I went back and looked and I published exactly one post of that nature; my last post.

As I began to really crave writing again, and picking up blogging again, I tried to assess what went wrong.  And of course, answer the nagging question, “how do I start over?”  The answer came to me and it was fairly simple.  I want a blog, where I can just write.  No weekly themes, no specific amounts of posts a week/month; just writing about whatever I feel like, from silly musings to the issues that really matter to me.  Talking about the things I love (or maybe the things I don’t love) and once again exploring my passion for the written word.  Truly, that was the purpose of this blog when I started it the first time, but I quickly got away from it.  So instead of once again starting over with a new blog, I decided to just pick up where I left off.  This time, staying true to the original purpose behind Jillian Loves- writing, eating, running and living!

Cheers!